Girl problems. advice?

okay well im 16 years old


and well lemme start from te beginning..


theres this girl who i met in my 8th rade year, her 7 th grade year.


from then onb we told each other that we liked each other. so that sae year we hooked up. and were on andoff for a total of 3 times.


we ended up breaking up for good because id be going to highschool and she'd still be in middle school.


so my freshman i still talked to her, texting and al that stuff.


that year she had i believe 4 boyfriends?


well i confessed to her my freshman year that I had still had STRONG feelings for her, and she told me she did too. but nothing happened because we went to different schools..


well then sophomore years olls along and we finally got back together ... again.


we were together for a total of about 11 months. thing were really good


she was my first kiss, my first makeout, and well you get the point...


well the following school year (this cuurent school year; im a junior) i brok up with her (on oct of 08); my reasons for this was that i didnt want to be in a relationship anymore. and thats how I truly felt. HONESTLY.


i still love her though.


i know i hurt her really bad and i was so upset at myself for doing that too her. i became depressed.


i know that was very mean for me to do.. but if im not going to be 100% committed to the relationship, i dont believe that's fair to her, right?


she deserves someone who'd wantto be with her. well thats how I feel.


well throughout this school year we still kissed alot, madeout, and held hands, despite that we were not together..





i know thats wrong but it all just happens in the moment.


recently, these past two weeks ive kind of stopped with all the affection cause i dont think its right..








but we still flirt a lot,. and it doesnt help that i have a class with her. and that i sit right next to her.


what a coincidence, i swear. o.o so its IMPOSSIBLE for me to forget about her.


i dont underastand whats wrong with me?! i truly love her but i dont want to be in a relationship.


because i believe i am not ready, and that i wont be commited


I DONT UNDERSTAND MYSELF.


im headed towards a MAJOOR BREAKDOWN.


and i dont know what to do anymore


can someone give me advice?


PLEASE.


Thanks





P.S. she had a date to winterformal and i believe she likes him a bit, and he definately likes her. she denied his kiss @ WF because she still had strong feelings for me; which i thought was really sweeet.





and i also had a date to WF, but we just went as friends, nothing more.





well i have to admit that im pretty jealous of that guy, because hes goodlooking, well built, and in football.


and well me? people tthink im goodlooking...im in tennis


and ive come to a conclusion that i have low self esteeem





well help me pleasee


any advice would be great!thankssGirl problems. advice?
I agree you did a good thing :) or maybe just a better thing, see most guys just ignore it and keep going out with them until everything falls apart. if she knows that you still love but your just going through things she might be hurt, but everyone gets hurt when you break up with someone no matter what. keep in touch with each other and maybe in the future when your both ready for it youll be together again.Girl problems. advice?
Awe you sound like such a nice guy :) you sound super sweet :)


anyways.... if your not completely into the relationship then you did the right thing ending it. and hey, no-one ever said you guys cant get back together right? you dont need to worry about it because you did the right thing. continue to be her friend and talk to her daily but only as friends.that way she isn't totally out of your life. good luck with everything. oh and good job playing tennis- i love tennis! i go to a full time academy- 5 hours a day everyday :)